I'm officially graduating tomorrow, an alumni with a Bachelor of Arts in English Language Studies. But I am going to be totally honest, 100% blunt and straightforward: I am not in the mood AT ALL. I don't want to go to my convocation tomorrow. I hate it.
I tried really hard to believe that I did it. Like everyone else, I am supposed to be happy with graduation, right?
I was hoping to graduate with a Sidang Chancellor pass, but when results came out around September last month, I had proved myself wrong. With that, I also proved myself incompetent. And with that also, my seething hatred towards myself burns even more.
I could do it, but I didn't. It was exclusively and solely of my own fault, and only mine.
Honestly it was just 0.01 point away.
Tu yang sakit tu.
So here's a little video I made while my friends and I went to pick up our jubahs, because I am trying SO. HARD. to not screw up tomorrow.